July 30, 2011

fuck this world!!!

this morning the bloody memory lane brought me my first bra! it was white with darker blue lace - my only size A bra ever!! I was twelve and wanted to be a boy!! i didn't want a bra!

How many times i have wanted to be a man? countless!!!  and why - because those bloody screamers get everything so easily and i get nothing!  now you roll your eyes and say that - but that's not true!! and i say that - but it is!!

you know, that when a guy gets twenty he goes to army! it is his duty. the state pays the rent of his apartment while he is in service. and there he gets food, lodgings, clothes and everything he needs from medical attention to play station! sieg heil!!

and when a gal turns twenty she gets pregnant! oh dear! she is not even married! haven't been able to get a man for herself, but buns in the oven hahahaa!!! she is a whore, bloody hooker!! can't keep her legs crossed, idiot!! and how does the state promote her feminity and motherhood? by paying the lowest possible social aid...  no roof no food nothing - either she does everything herself or is without!!! and is she has a job it is the employer that pays, not the state - it is a huge anomality in treatment...

if the money or even some money that is poured in weapons and killing would be paid to mothers and children... and even that shit when you 'have to work and take the baby to daycare - we have the best in the world!!' you can not take care of the child yourself, no: you wont be paid for it, you get money just from other people's kids! and that is equality??? but it is 'eqalite and fraternite' - no mention of women there either!!


oh shit, nothing ever happens!!! just endless misery...